I tried my best.
At least i know i've changed.
why must it be SO unfair?
So difficult to get pass the obstacles?!
So unfair.
SO messed up. ARRRHRRRRRRRRHRRRHRHRHRHHRHRHRHRRHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH!!
Tried so hard.
Thought i got it.
in the end it's just someone's stupid mistake.
Hate it.
Doesnt anyone out there cares about feelings?!
WHy is it that others dont work as hard,
they fucking get their rewards..
When i received that call,
i nearly wanted to cry.
I'm so tired.
So damn tired after relentlessly slogging through everything,
trying my damnit best.
Slept at 5am ..
Nearly every day..
Fell sick.
and in the end,
just cast it aside with a mistake.
SO damn TIRED!
So tired that when i tried to sleep,
i couldnt,
and when i finally could,
keep waking up,
afraid that i'll be late..
having nightmares..
Tell them off.. but i just cant do it. it's more of the dread and the burden that's weighing down instead of anger. I'll have to go thru it again?!! Please, NO!
I'm so tired.
spare me pls.
Let me get through this. i dont have the energy anymore.
Believe it or not..
I've been long wanting to blog,
bout relationships and stuff,
but i dont knw how to begin.
So finally,
decided to just try..
cuz today,
a friend of mine just broke up with her BF.
I'm stuck again.
i dont knw how to continue.. humm..
she called,
sobbing..
at first i thought it was the loussy reception..
but she was sobbing.. and sobbing.
i nearly wanted to shed a tear for her broken heart....
Can >4 years time really measure the stability of a relationship?
I dont think so.
Give it 10 years.
People change.
Environment change.
we change.
But we wANT love to remain the same..
i dont think so.
I'm a very dependant person when it comes to relationship.
i can declare it very clearly and loudly here.
It takes GUTS and Courage for someone to tolerate and love me.
I'm of course not self advertising here..
but .. is it wrong to be dependant?
Wat's up with that honey-moon period ..
then that,
" i want my own life!"
" i need my friends.."
" i want to go clubbing, catch up.."
As i m typing this,
i'm sure many people can relate to this..
and shout,
" Oh, u're so selfish.."
" U shd give him freedom.."
"Dont u trust him?"
I trusted. And lost myself to that trust. But luckily it was in the past.
Sometimes,
U just love that someone so much,
u need to see him everyday,
every chance possible.
At least on the girls' side.
How come it's possible for someone not want to meet a loved one everyday?
At the same time,
is it wrong?
I miss u, i need to see u ...
and he says.. too much, Need my life.
Cant u say that years earlier?
I can firmly say, " U're such a lousy guy."
Stop hurting others.
I'm not pointing fingers at people.
Whoever who's reading my blog,
u may think i'm wrong or right..
but that's my feelings.
" Am I controlling u too much too? "
I remember a line my friend once said, " If people hurt so much, why are we born with a heart? "
You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good!
You scored as Donald Duck. Your alter ego is Donald Duck! Try as you might, you have a nasty temper that is hard to control. But you try hard to please, and you arn't one to go down without a fight.
You scored as Poison. Your death will be by poison, probably because you are a glutton and are around so many people that it would be easy to get away with it.
I see it coming.
Was wondering why i didnt get it for the past few weeks.
It's finally here.
I'm sick.
Vi passed the GERMS TO ME.
Now,
i'm a sick pea managing my bloody 3000- words essay.
Viv got it too.
Poor thing.
Must have slogged too hard with me and ze assignments.
Oh.
Good News.
I got accepted for the course i selected.
But was wondering whether i can change the course,
backside itchy rite.
so many ppl in my class,
coonz get into the course..
and there i m whining away.
But anyway,
saw a cat and a crow dwnstrs..
apparently the cat was playing with the injured crow.
Tried my best to SHOO the cat,
it IGNORED ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Hate Cats!
My knees went soft seeing a feather on the ground.
Lost sight of them after the crow ran str into the bush.
it was CAW-ing away like crazy.
I bet it must haf been tortured to death by now.
Not too good.
Last, last nite was spent worrying bout the essay.
Dont understand,
Thank god for Dexter.
He managed the body ..
and i stayed up too 5 plus am, 1 hour was spent crying and throwing things, the other was trying to put bullshit together ..
I'm seriously overdoesed with bibliography and foot notes. AND the Format!
Next day,
filled with anxiety,
Lunch then immediate continuation..
met Miss Tang Ling Nah ..
she said," Friday lar"
I was so happy..
the auntie gave me a 'TA pao' takeaway for my rice..
when i think i didnt ask for it,
but maybe i did,
subconsciously..
Went to Vi's place for project,
film a stupid advertisement,
Vi's tube fell off,
exposing her boobs.
the entire thing.
she screamed,
i screamed,
jac screamed.
2 guys there,
one filming,
and one watching.
What will u do if u were her!>
I'm supposed to be on the way to her place,
we're editing it today.
I';m still blogging..
For CLAIRE..
Thanks so much for asking about me..
it's just the quarrels ..
same quarrels that happening more frequently now,
or maybe it's my moody moods..
Blistered.Blue-black.Bruised.Beaten.Bothered.Bloated.
Cuz i @@ claire's taggy,
humm.. thinks that she's a driftwood.
I think she's more of a pious,busy career woman!
I'll let u into my world , claire,
u're like always the big sister where we can find encouragement and CRITISMS from..
i left a long winded taggy for u. So please read it.
Dinner soon or coffee. One day dedicated to me!! :)
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